The thing with depression is, it just hits you sometimes. One second you might actually feel okay and the next you feel lifeless. It's like all the life within you has been sucked out, and your body is left sitting there, limp. You don't feel real, you don't feel anything. But then comes the pain. That gut wrenching horrible unexplainable pain, that latches onto every fiber of your being and refuses to let go. It's this feeling that drives you to the brink of suicide. You long to escape, to feel relief, to reach oblivion.